1 / Nerd Illusion
2 / Snow
3 / The Stone

Credits 
FAF is Edwin Roes (guitars), Alex Toonen (vocals), Ed Wernke (drums), Peter de Jong (keyboards), Rene Bacchus (bass, backing vocals)

All illusions written by For Absent Friends
Recorded far away where the rabbits play, in the summer of 1990
Produced by for absent friends and Gert-Jan Masurel
Sound engineer Mark "more beautiful would be unbearable" Derksen
Art director Paul Vlielander

1 / Nerd Illusion
It's a cold/ bright winternight
Rivers and streams are frozen
The woods are covered with a layer of snow
And the wind whispers through the trees

It's a land of mystery
Where the sun shines when it snows
Where the birds cry out their fears
For the raindrops are their tears

A full moon lights
A little spot on an open place
Far away where the rabbits play
I'd go there if I could

But the birds they hide in silence
To keep their dreams upright
Sometimes just an illusion
Is better than the real sight

'Cause only the birds can see
The hatred of reality
Only birds know the sadness
They found out there

And when the sun is rising
The land is melting away
As if nothing ever happened
It's just another day

And when the night has fallen
The story starts again
And maybe just one day
This dream will stay

2 / Snow
Why does the snow affect me
Is it its innocent shape
Or is it the lovely view
When a new layer of snow is laid

Why do I like to go outside
Putting my footprints at first
Thinking about all the things we've done
Before we covered your skin with dirt

When I wake up in winter
A world so white
I still remember that feeling
The feeling of touching...

After the snow has fallen
I can't stand watching above
Are my eyes just filled with snow
Maybe tears I don't know

I really get the feeling
That I'm still loving you
When I make a track across
Your white and glittering skin

I can't understand
Why people don't show their feelings
To you - For after all
It's your food they're eating

I can't understand
Why people don't show their love
To you - For after all
It's your air they're breathing

I can't understand
Why people can't show their feelings
To you - For after all
It's your food they're eating.

I can't understand
Why people can't show their love
To you - For after all
It's your air...

3 / The Stone
It seemed like a dream last night
I didn't know what to say
How could I've been so blind
To let it slip away
You have to believe' when I say
You're all I'll ever need
Don't think it matters anymore

It seems like a lifetime ago
We were happy with what we had
I didn't have doubts you know
We never thought it would end
So I believed' when you said
It's slipping through our hands
So many changes in one year

Life goes on
No matter what you do
Please don't tell me
I'm to blame

Day by day
Year by year
Nothing ever
Stays the same

Are we so blind
Yes - we're too blind
That we can't see
We live our lives pretending
Love day after day
Deep inside I wanted
I wanted you to stay
But soon it came to this
We're throwing it all away

I tried to love you
I tried to please you
Every day
But was it worth it
Was it worth the pain
We've grown apart
Year after year
And now I'm missing you
I'm missing you
You're not here

Ooh - It's more than you and me
Ooh - I'm still nor feeling free

I lie awake and
I'm still staring
At the sky
To find an answer
To find a reason why
I can't pretend
It isn't hurting
For after all these years
I can't stand
Being free

So if you know how feel
Won't you come back to me
I know this feeling is real
It's easy to throw it away
Just give us a chance
I want you to stay
To stay forever...

Ooh - It's more than you and me
Ooh - I'm still not feeling free

Are we really living
Or is it just a play
We think we are forgiving'
But throw our pride away
We can't live together
Although we never tried
And even if we want it
We still can't find the time