Running in Circles (1993)

Credits 
FAF is Edwin Roes (guitars), Alex Toonen (vocals), Ed Wernke (drums, backing vocals), Peter de Jong (keyboards), Rene Bacchus (bass, backing vocals)

All songs written and performed by FAF
Produced by Mark anthony, Gert-Jan Masurel and Ed Wernke
Recorded and mixed at Markant recording studios, Heeze,
the Netherlands, autumn 1993
engineered by Mark Derksen
co-engineered by Joris Vincken
co-co-engineered by Sjoerd & Jasper Derksen
mastered by Peter van 't Riet
at Digopro Soest, the Netherlands
Photography and sleeve design Steven van der Hoeff
Sleeve production Willebrord Elsing
1 / Into Love
I see no secrets in the night
I see no future in tomorrow
And in the blink of an eye
There's desperation
You lead me to places
Where everything is right

Children playing in the park
An angry voice of one's mother
Getting home before it's dark
There are no excuses
Anything is better
Than the beating of his father
When he's home

I hear the silence in the sound of your voice
I see the beauty all around you
And when I listen I don't have a choice
You lead me into love

I see no secrets in your eyes
An open book that's full of sorrow
Keep on living in your lies
Think of tomorrow
Because anything is better
Than the beating of your father
When you're home

I hear the silence in the sound of your voice
I see the beauty all around you
And when I listen I don't have a choice
You lead me into love
2 / Downtown
Going downtown
To the place where I have met you once before
That night
You looked at me as if you tried to say
Be mine
Then you left me in the darkness of the night

Going downtowns
Though I may never catch a glimpse of you again
And I feel
That somehow you are destined to be mine
In time
I just hope to tell you what you mean to me
I've got to find out what you mean to me

She's the girl of my dreams
But it's not what it seems
It's more than a feeling
And if you're asking me why
Would I break down and cry
It's starting over again

Yes it's me I know
But it's all part of the show I try to steal
From you
Yet I know there's nothing more that I can do
But to keep on dreaming
If I only could
But there is so much that you just don't know

She's the girl of my dreams
But it's not what it seems
It's more than a feeling
And if you're asking me why
Would I break down and cry
It's starting over...
And if you're asking me why
Would I break down and cry
It's starting over again

I guess it figures
I guess I'm wrong
I'm never getting anything I want
So I'll keep on dreaming
Lying close beside you
Going downtown once again
3 / A New Day
So the new day
Blows our tears away
And all our feelings
Were never meant to stay

It's then that you'll realise
There's nothing more to gain
Only memories
And reflections of our pain

I tried to find a new love
Wanting answers to my calls
But it's this feeling of loneliness
That drives me up the walls

I know it's time for me
To start it on my own
I have to find my feelings
Of the good times I have known

I don't think you'll ever know
What's going on in my mind
My head is filled with bad thoughts
And they're really making me blind

And don't you ever ask yourself
Did I do something wrong
It's just a feeling that comes from within
A feeling that is gone

I know it's time for me
To start it on my own
I have to find my feelings
Of the good times I have known

I know it's time for me
To start it on my own
I have to find my feelings
Of the good times I have known
4 / Passing Days
The pace increased when the night recalled its demons
The face was lined when the clock moved after ten
You hear a sound when you're going through the alley
Has your car been locked
Or was it taken by your friends

Phone's off the hook do not answer
Lock all your doors and stay inside
You've got to know you have to survive now
You've got to know that you have nowhere left to hide

I find myself in a strange situation
Every time I go out
I don't know if there is just one explanation

Terror on the streets no one likes it
I find it hard to carry on
We have to be one we have to unite now
We have to beat them all
Stop it all
Fight until they run

I find myself in a strange situation
Everytime I go out
I don't know if there is just one explanation

I am the man who works from sunrise until sunset
I am the one who's reached his point of no return
No sense no meaning just empty thoughts again
I knew the day had come to fly in the most peculiar way
It's only in my dreams I think nothing stays the same

And still the world has found no answer
Just no one seems to understand
I feel lost and I don't know where to find me
I'm going home nothing's changed so far
I see
5 / Running Scared
Waking up the neighbours
As you slam the door
Coming home at night
You fall helpless on the floor
Crawling to your bed to hide

It's a strange sensation
Your body's aching
And you're drowning in your sweat
You feel your blood run through your vains
You want to run
But you're paralysed

Running scared
You're paranoid
Running scared
You're schizoid paranoid

There's no point escaping
It's nerve breaking
Fears are eating out your spine
You live your life with a constant fright
You're well aware
You're hunted by your other side

The other one is not like you
You have no clue
As to what the hell he wants from you
But he is always on your tail
And he won't ever fail
To make you

Running scared
You're paranoid
Running scared
You're schizoid paranoid

You hear a voice and you lift your head
There's a million shadows moving on your wall
You try to scream but it's no use
You're bound to loose control

It's a strange sensation
You're body's aching
And you're drowning in your sweat
You feel your blood run through your vains
You want to run
But you're paralysed instead
That's because you're

Running scared
You're paranoid
Running scared
You're schizoid paranoid
6 / Someone Like You
Running in circles for the whole of my life
I'm looking for something to do
I always imagined that I could be someone like you
But now I've decided it's all gone to waste
As you told me you're leaving today
I just never dreamt I could tell you this line
I love you I want you to stay

And if I ever decided the things that you said were unreal
Would you try to promise me something you wouldn't
I just want you to stay

Repressing the anger that's eating my soul
I'm changing the dark into blue
Sometimes I imagine the things I could act out on you
So now I've decided you're nothing but dust
I guess there's a thing you should know
I just never dreamt I could tell you this line
I'm happy I'll go with the flow

And if I ever decided the things that you said were unreal
Would you try to promise me something you wouldn't
And if I ever found out you were lying
You were lying to me

Holding on to the feelings that keep me alive
If that is what I'll have to do
I never imagined that I'd be disgusted by you
But now I've decided you're not worth the pain
There's so much you still have to learn
I just never dreamt I could tell you this line
I hate you I want you to burn

Don't want you to stay
7 / The Fight
There's nobody here
In this lonely night
Frustration and fear
In this restless fight

All the things that I hold
Only remind me of you
In the dark of the night
I still hear my lies

There's nothing to change
About the things I've done
My feelings remain
Even though you're gone... away

Still my heart cries for you
I can't forget your face
And the darkness moves on
Like a cold embrace

See the mess I've made
Just close your eyes
And feel my pain inside
Try to understand
It's just my anger
That I try to hide

Trying to get you off my mind...
We've had our share
It takes time to heal... the wounds
But I don't think you care
About the way I feel... for you

And everything that we had
Is slipping through my hands
When you're not here
Emptiness remains
The beating of my heart

See the mess I've made
Just close your eyes
And feel my pain inside
Try to understand
It's just my anger
That I try to hide

Trying to get you off my mind...
And forget
8 / The Bald, The Fat And The Ugly

(instrumental)
9 / Memories
There must be something going on
It's just a thing I can't accept
Everyday I try to realise you're gone

Inside my head I know it's right
But deep in my heart
It feels like an everlasting fight
And I keep telling myself it's alright

I know that we both agreed
To stop this thing that we believed in
But everyday I have to convince myself it's right

When I see you walking with a man
I have to pretend
It's part of a plan to let you go
But I'm just fooling myself
And I won't let it show

Oh memories
You haunt me in my dreams
And you tell me I'm a fool to let go

It's like an obsession
I know you're no good
But I can't seem to get you out of my mind
My friends are asking me
Is she really that blind

She doesn't know what she has got
And it would really mean a lot to me
If she would look me in the eye
And tell me goodbye

Oh memories
You haunt me in my dreams
And you tell me I'm a fool to let go

Oh memories
You keep on hunting me in my dreams
And you're really a fool to let go

To let go...
10 / Nights
Everynight she goes out
She comes back older than before
Everything she's done
She's never gone this far
And everytime she's scared
She's so aware of what she's doing

Everynight she goes out
She crosses a line or two
Every man she meets
She makes him feel so good
But everytime she's scared
She's so aware of what she's doing

A face without a name
Emotions without shame
What seemed a harmless night
But will they ever find
The feelings that she hides

Is it just a feeling
Or is it more then she can say with only words
Holding on to memories
As her life is drifting by
She has no choice
Only empty promises
That have been made to her by each and every guy
And they were well aware what they were doing

Seems like only yesterday
She told her mother she had left her house forgood
Thinking of her sister
Who tried to warn her of the dangerous side of love
And even though she's older
She only laughed at her to tell her she was wrong
But was she so aware of what she meant?

A face without a name
Emotions without shame
What seemed a harmless night
But will they ever find
The feelings that she hides

And then she speaks to him
She tells him what is wrong
She says I'm trying to make you see
It won't be very long
So why don't you speak to me
You treat me like I'm gone
And why don't you talk to me
Don't treat me like I'm gone
And why don't you hold me
If only for a while
And why don't you touch me
Not even for a while
So won't you please hold me
It won't be very long for me
And there's no one left to believe in

Now everynight she goes out
She crosses a line too far
It's no excuse
Even though she's doing it with love
And every time she's scared
She's well aware that it's too late
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