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Hans van Lint, Ed Wernke, Edwin Roes, Julian Driessen/Peter de Jong, Rene Herben
we can not (4:29)silly lovesong (4:35) giving up (3:46)cameroon (4:21)the big room (7:30)if love (4:04)little things (3:56)higher level (4:02)don't hurt me (5:13)the one (4:33)
produced by mark derksen and fafrecorded, mixed* and mastered atmarkant recording studios, heeze, the netherlandsall songs written and performed by faf 2001arrangements by faf and mark derksen*assisted by gert-jan masurelartwork and design by bert van dijkphotography by ruud raatspublished by mark anthony songsred sea records.
we can work it out we can talk about it we can go over it till kingdom come we communicate all right we act like grown up people we can be that civilized but just to shut up and talk without words to be convincing without a monologue to speak with our hands our hearts our soul we can not... we are open-minded we are positive we can go through our own therapy we are dedicated we are so committed we sure look good on paper but just to shut up and talk without words to be convincing without a monologue to speak with our hands our hearts our soul we can not... but just to shut up and forget who we are and be unreasonably mad cause of nothing at all to forgive with our hearts mind and our soul we can not... but just to shut up and talk without words to be convincing without a monologue to speak with our hands our hearts our soul we can not... so shut up we can not... shut up
we can work it out
we can talk about it
we can go over it till
kingdom come
we communicate all right
we act like grown up people
we can be that civilized
but just to shut up
and talk without words
to be convincing
without a monologue
to speak with our hands
our hearts our soul
we can not...
we are open-minded
we are positive
we can go through
our own therapy
we are dedicated
we are so committed
we sure look good on paper
and forget who we are
and be unreasonably mad
cause of nothing at all
to forgive with our hearts
mind and our soul
so shut up
shut up
it's so much easier to walk on water to fly to the moon and back so much easier to write a thousand novels than sharing my thoughts with you is it so hard is it really worthwhile to understand my world my soul, my dreams is it so hard is it all but a lie would you listen to these words, this song it's just a silly love-song it's just a silly love-song cause I tried to find the words to say to tell you in a different way but all that I came up with this silly love-song... it's so much easier (is it so hard) to walk on water fly to the moon and back so much easier (is it all just a lie) to write a thousand novels than sharing my thoughts with you it's just a silly love-song it's just a silly love-song cause I tried to find the words to say to tell you in a different way but all that I came up with this silly love-song
it's so much easier
to walk on water
to fly to the moon and back
so much easier
to write a thousand novels
than sharing my
thoughts with you
is it so hard
is it really worthwhile
to understand my world
my soul, my dreams
is it all but a lie
would you listen
to these words, this song
it's just a silly love-song
cause I tried to find
the words to say
to tell you in a different way
but all that I came up with
this silly love-song...
(is it so hard)
fly to the moon and back
(is it all just a lie)
this silly love-song
don't tell me it's all right cause I'm entitled to some anger when I say I quit I give up doesn't mean I'm giving up the fight there's no distinction I've tried but I've failed well it's the same aggravation every day too much confusion too much information life's much too precious to fade away who says I have to love you? there's no salvation call it what you want it's the same frustration every day too much confusion too much information free your mind or fade away who says I have to love you? who says I have to need you? who says I have to make the best of our lives? don't tell me it's all right cause I'm entitled to some anger when I say I quit I give up doesn't mean I'm giving up the fight 'cause I can still hear you climbing up the stairs and I can feel my body shaking when I say I quit I give up doesn't mean I'm giving up the fight and I can still see the expression in your eyes and I can feel the tears overflowing mine and when I say that I'm not coming back again doesn't mean I'm giving up the fight there's no prescription I've had enough love to choke on it's like a time-bomb that blows up to fast too much confusion too much information you can not touch me and then cast me aside who says I have to love you? who says I have to need you? who says that I don't love you?
don't tell me it's all right
cause I'm entitled to some anger
when I say I quit I give up
doesn't mean I'm
giving up the fight
there's no distinction
I've tried but I've failed
well it's the same aggravation
every day
too much confusion
too much information
life's much too precious
to fade away
who says I have to love you?
there's no salvation
call it what you want
it's the same frustration
free your mind
or fade away
who says I have to need you?
who says I have to make
the best of our lives?
'cause I can still
hear you climbing up the stairs
and I can feel my body shaking
and I can still see
the expression in your eyes
and I can feel the tears
overflowing mine
and when I say
that I'm not coming back again
there's no prescription
I've had enough love to choke on
it's like a time-bomb
that blows up to fast
you can not touch me
and then cast me aside
who says that I don't love you?
she's black and beautiful skin of dust and clouds before her eyes she's like a deep blue pearl a teardrop spilled when god was passing by and I know how the passion it glows in your eyes and I see she runs thicker than blood through your veins and I hope I'll be a part of that part in your life she's black and beautiful a ring of fire and smoke before her eyes just like the trojan horse you let her in and find yourself inside and I know how the passion it glows in your eyes and I see she runs thicker than blood through your veins and I hope I'll be a part of that part in your life she's black and beautiful she's fast asleep when you're still wide awake you think you understand but you don't feel her heart beating and I know how the passion it glows in your eyes and I see she runs thicker than blood through your veins and I hope I'll be a part of that part in your life when everything changes around you and inside of you a part of you dies she's black and beautiful but underneath the sun and makossa she's cold cruel sometimes chaos rules in little africa and I know in every corner in every town she hides behind courtesy drinks and smiles and I hope I'll be a part of that part in your life when everything changes around you and inside of you a part of you dies
she's black and beautiful
skin of dust and clouds
before her eyes
she's like a deep blue pearl
a teardrop spilled
when god was passing by
and I know
how the passion it glows
in your eyes
and I see
she runs thicker than
blood through your veins
and I hope
I'll be a part of that
part in your life
a ring of fire
and smoke before her eyes
just like the trojan horse
you let her in
and find yourself inside
she's fast asleep when
you're still wide awake
you think you understand
but you don't feel
her heart beating
when everything
changes around you
and inside of you
a part of you dies
but underneath
the sun and makossa
she's cold
cruel sometimes
chaos rules
in little africa
in every corner in every town
she hides
behind courtesy
drinks and smiles
it's shining the spotlight in your eyes it's your choice it's your life don't let it slip away now from your hands you've got it so go get it now it's calling like voices in your head as loud as you've ever heard before it's not your imagination running over you just let it free yourself from you turn it off put it down just walk away and get out get out into the big room get out get out into the big room the music is beating in your heart it's as real as the ground you walk upon it's not just a high light from your dreams stop dreaming start living now turn it off put it down just walk away and get out get out into the big room (beyond the black and white) get out get out out into the big room it's your choice your life get out into the big room (where you look beyond what keeps you inside) get out get out into the big room so when you draw your master plan don't incorporate the fuss that you're stuck into from your head to your toes because who you really are is who you wanna be it's shining in your eyes the spotlight it's your choice your life... get out!
it's shining
the spotlight
it's your choice
it's your life
don't let it
slip away now
from your hands
you've got it
so go get it now
it's calling
like voices
in your head
as loud as
you've ever heard before
it's not your
imagination
running over you
just let it
free yourself from you
turn it off
put it down
just walk away and
get out
into the big room
the music
is beating
in your heart
it's as real
as the ground
you walk upon
it's not just
a high light
from your dreams
stop dreaming
start living now
(beyond the black and white)
out into the big room
it's your choice your life
(where you look beyond
what keeps you inside)
so when you draw
your master plan
don't incorporate the fuss
that you're stuck into
from your head to your toes
because who you really are
is who you wanna be
it's shining in your eyes
it's your choice your life...
get out!
it's new years day she says she wants to dance the night away on a marble floor in negligée without any reservation dancing on top of the world then she smiles whispers goodnight but in a little while is it my imagination? or just the wind that I heard if love can withhold her from dancing I don't want it anymore if love can take that once in a lifetime and lock it up between concrete walls if it does I don't want it anymore he says: "it's ok" if you don't want it baby it can wait until we're rich enough for resignation without any chances taken cruising the safe side of life than he smiles whispers goodnight but in the morning light he's got his eyes still wide open the emptiness inside if love can withhold his desire I don't want it anymore if love can take that once in a lifetime and lock it up between concrete walls if it does I don't want it anymore and if it's not enough to find the right words to say to try and kiss and hug that feeling away if it makes it so hard to deal with the pain better stop the show cause it might not be there anymore...
it's new years day
she says she wants
to dance the night away
on a marble floor in negligée
without any reservation
dancing on top of the world
then she smiles
whispers goodnight
but in a little while
is it my imagination?
or just the wind that I heard
if love
can withhold her from dancing
I don't want it anymore
can take that once in a lifetime
and lock it up between
concrete walls
if it does
he says: "it's ok"
if you don't want it
baby it can wait
until we're
rich enough for resignation
without any chances taken
cruising the safe side of life
than he smiles
but in the morning light
he's got his eyes still wide open
the emptiness inside
can withhold his desire
and lock it up
between concrete walls
and if it's not enough
to find the right words to say
to try and kiss and hug
that feeling away
if it makes it
so hard to deal with the pain
better stop the show
cause it might not be there
anymore...
the voice that echoes in my mind the song I've sung a million times it's all so obvious so true if there's a point it all leads to then why are we so lonely I found love lies in all these little things the whisper of "I love you" in my ear my bags are packed your eyes are closed my lips are dry your hands are cold and as I'm trying not to scream and you are trying hard to dream the truth hits like a sniper I found love lies in all these little things the whisper of "I love you" in my ear if you can't feel what I can feel if you can't see what I can see you might as well be blind if you hold on too hard it might run like water through your hands you live on borrowed time the voice that echoes in my mind the song I've sung a million times it's all so obvious so true if there's a point it all leads to then why are we so lonely if you can't feel what I can feel if you can't see what I can see you might as well be blind if you hold on too hard it might run like water through your hands you live on borrowed time
the voice that echoes in my mind
the song I've sung a million times
it's all so obvious so true
if there's a point it all leads to
then why are we so lonely
I found love lies
in all these little things
the whisper of "I love you"
in my ear
my bags are packed
your eyes are closed
my lips are dry
your hands are cold
and as I'm trying not to scream
and you are trying hard to dream
the truth hits like a sniper
if you can't feel what I can feel
if you can't see what I can see
you might as well be blind
if you hold on too hard it might
run like water through your hands
you live on borrowed time
the empty thoughts cross my mind the hollow spot that meets the eye the anger that's hidden all inside one day it'll blow up in my face tried to run and hide let it stay at the back of my mind it's getting harder each day give a little time they say give it just another day don't let your emotions get in the way must get my feelings to another level must get the feeling doing something right I'm hiding my pain that's the way I'm travelling I must get the feeling that everything I do is all right... I realise now not every one should know the kind of state of mind you're in I realise now that I'm not allowed to show what is hidden in your heart must get my feelings to another level must get the feeling doing something right I'm hiding my pain that's the way I'm travelling I must get the feeling that everything I do is all right... must get my feelings to a higher level must get the feeling doing something right I'm hiding my pain that's the way I'm travelling I must get the feeling that everything I do is all right...
the empty thoughts cross my mind
the hollow spot that meets the eye
the anger that's hidden all inside
one day it'll blow up in my face
tried to run and hide
let it stay at the back of my mind
it's getting harder each day
give a little time they say
give it just another day
don't let your emotions
get in the way
must get my feelings
to another level
must get the feeling
doing something right
I'm hiding my pain
that's the way I'm travelling
I must get the feeling
that everything I do is all right...
I realise now
not every one should know
the kind of state of mind you're in
that I'm not allowed to show
what is hidden in your heart
to a higher level
I don't care what's going on in your mind I don't know what you're thinking of all the time usually I'm not a violent type of man I'll give it all the very best that I can but don't you hurt me it's funny how you get caught up in your lies simply cause there is nothing that I would not buy so what's been cooking in your mind what is it you're telling me between the lines where's the truth behind your lies how to figure out what's in your eyes as long as you don't hurt me you can wear me out put me down I'll be standing up I will be around you break my heart burn my house I'll be fuelled up faster than you can blink your eyes as long as you don't hurt me... ...I'll be fine I don't care I am deaf, numb and blind to what it is you're saying to what you have in mind you can paralyze my thinking you can penetrate my mind you can patronize my feelings substitute my truth with lies you can stick to separation and mix it up with love you can thrive on isolation you could kill yourself one day you can wear me out put me down I'll be standing up I will be around you can break my heart burn my house I'll be fuelled up faster than you can blink your eyes as long as you don't hurt me... ...I'll be fine
I don't care
what's going on in your mind
I don't know
what you're thinking
of all the time
usually I'm
not a violent type of man
I'll give it all
the very best that I can
but don't you hurt me
it's funny how
you get caught up in your lies
simply cause
there is nothing that I
would not buy
so what's been cooking
in your mind
what is it you're telling me
between the lines
where's the truth behind your lies
how to figure out
what's in your eyes
as long as you don't hurt me
you can wear me out
put me down
I'll be standing up
I will be around
you break my heart
burn my house
I'll be fuelled up faster
than you can blink your eyes
as long as you don't hurt me...
...I'll be fine
I am deaf, numb and blind
to what it is you're saying
to what you have in mind
you can paralyze my thinking
you can penetrate my mind
you can patronize my feelings
substitute my truth with lies
you can stick to separation
and mix it up with love
you can thrive on isolation
you could kill yourself one day
you can break my heart
in his first few hours the father knows for sure he will raise a golden boy in those innocent hours the mother looks at her precious human toy he's supposed to be the one the one who's got to live somebody's life again it's time to leave the dreams that captured me it's time for your tomorrow it's time to disagree it's time to carry on to a place I've never been no time for all your sorrow someday you'll see what I have seen he embraced his little lawyer she carresses her little king a long expected dream forfilled another puppet on their strings he's supposed to be the one the one who's got to live somebody's life again it's time to leave the dreams that captured me it's time for your tomorrow it's time to disagree it's time to carry on to a place I've never been no time for all your sorrow someday you'll see what I have seen
in his first few hours
the father knows for sure
he will raise a golden boy
in those innocent hours
the mother looks at her precious
human toy
he's supposed to be the one
the one who's got to live
somebody's life again
it's time to leave the dreams
that captured me
it's time for your tomorrow
it's time to disagree
it's time to carry on
to a place I've never been
no time for all your sorrow
someday you'll see
what I have seen
he embraced his little lawyer
she carresses her little king
a long expected dream forfilled
another puppet on their strings